i got a new xanga...

www.xanga.com/xbarebonedandcrazyx

Sarah- sorry.. i didnt read the comments till yesturday nite

Well.. lets see.. term paper is deff. pissing me off.. god, who likes them? i mean they are the uncoolest things ever... i dont mind writing the term paper but i dont need 50 note cards to do so.. all i need is an internet site and the copy and paste button...

mr braim thinks im retarded... and so do other people..the whole valentines day chocolate thing in class. omggg..dont ask,  i almost puked.

damn it, i hate people who "talk big"

i need a vacation from this town, maybe just jake and i, but we are saving money and we are going to a nice place... FAR AWAY... and when we move in togethr it will be a vacation from my family.... ugh

and summer, what good times last summer, man do i wish it was here, just to relax not worry bout a fuckin god damn thing..

vacation is this week- get to see a lot of people i dont hang out with ne more.. maybe drink my worries away..

United we stand in toxicated we fall.

beginning to hate this fuckin xanga site...

so maybe im going to take a little break from it..

Valentines day was the best ever

Jake sent flowers to my school, and i almost cried. it met so much to me.

Then school was boring cos all i could think about was jake and going out to dinner and stuff.... ya stuff...

So my mom wouldnt let me drive to jakes house, cos when it rains she instantly thinks im going to die on the roads. okay maybe just jakes road. but w.e. so then travis said he would come pick me up...n wat not, so jake and i, trav and ashley, we all went out to UNO.. my fav.! It was a nice time, maybe the best night of my life. i know theres many times to come tho.

went back to jakes house and "hung out" and we exchaged cards and i gave him his present, and he said he loved it. so we had a romantic night and it was so amazing.

I love him, and just to know that he feels the same way about me is the best feeling in the world. Jake- i will always love you forever & ever! he means the world to me... theres no words describing how he makes me feel and how i feel about it..

"It was like a dream come true"

today Hillary and I went tanning after school at enternal sun. Not to shabby just expensive. it was good to hang out with her, wow i havent in so long.

didnt get to see jake tonite- he got outta work a little late, but we sat here and garrett came over and we celebrated his birthday, gosh he is growing up so fast.

Jake is like spending all day with me tomorrow well if he gets out of work early.. Whoo... And you know wat that means  lol... ALlllllllllllright...

iloveyouJake

Well i ended up going to Ohio over the weekend... my sister really wanted to go, and so did i but just the thought of knowing no one really. I mean I haven’t seen some of my family in over 13 years, which is kind of awkward. And also I haven’t seen my dad since 7^th grade. But this whole thing gave me closure. I guess you don’t really know what I am saying unless you were in my place. Also I want to thank every one who was there for me. It was a really hard time for me you would know if you were my good friend but I guess you wouldn’t if you weren’t really close to me. Well enough of that because I have so much to say and I don’t want to be boring…

Monday- went to school. Ugh I was so sick but my mom made me go if I wanted to go to Jake’s house later on in the night. Well it was his brother’s 16^th b’day, Zack is his name! So we celebrated!

Didn’t go to school yesterday- man was I sick. So I just layed down most of the day, besides when my mom made me drive all over town. Oh yah and going to the doctors for almost 3 hours. God I hate the doctors…

Finally went back to school today- like I like English and all but I hate my teacher Mrs. F squared or what ever she calls herself. My mom is calling the school hopefully tomorrow asking them if I can switch teachers. I wouldn’t call her a teacher even, she doesn’t even teach us anything she just expects us to know how to do things with out helping, well I’m a slow learner and I need the extra help. I guess teachers look past that this year because we are SENIORS and all that.

Pray for a SNOWDAY tomorrow… wear your pjs inside out… K?

ANd jake is the best boyfriend ever.. like even if you guys knew. God we are perfect for each other!  He makes me so incredably happy (i dont know how to spell)

or a friend you used to know.and there below his frozen face you wrote the name and that ancient dateand you cant believe he's really gone when all thats left is a fucking song.

 it weird how you have a dream one night about your grandpa dieing and that your dad calls you the next day and tells you that he did.... im going to miss him, even tho all we had was a phone relationship but what do you expect when your parents get divorced and your dads family moves away? i mean i was closer than any of my sisters (half sister) or half brother to him. he died wed, and my dad decides to call me friday... now i can either miss the funeral or fly out tonight which is not happening.. even tho my mom said i could but it would be real emmtional and im not a funeral type of girl... god i hate them.. all you do is cry, of course youre going to cry when someone dies but idkkk... this sucks... life sucks..